New member in the familyy :)

Well, I'm sorry I've been busy. My computer stopped functioning in between, so there was no way I could get to you guys. Plus I have really important examinations coming up, so I have been super busy. Anyway, I have some good news and some bad news.

Good news is, there is a new member family. A chihuahua, named Taco. She's super adorable and hyper. She has the cutest bark ever. She's tiny and sneaky and full of fun!

And the bad news, we rescued a new-born kitten, named Benjamin.. He died two days after he was under our care. Doctors said he needed his mother to survive. He was adorable too, wish I could spend more time with himmm :(

Happy Never After?

I feel like a child. Enviously looking at another child, holding the largest, most colorful and most delicious looking candy I've ever seen. Well, I could obviously put it to better use than her. Than just staring at it and pretending to appreciate it. I can eat it, relish it, because I know what it's worth.

I feel crippled. Looking at people around me never appreciating what they have, knowing that people like me don't have what they do. If I could, I would do so many things. For myself, for others, for the world. Yet, they never realize the value of what they have.

Have you ever felt that way? When what you don't have, is a person. When you see someone else treat that person so horribly, and they're too blind and still hope they'll find their happiness with them? Have you ever wanted to tell that person, "No, stupid. It's me. I'm your 'Happy Ever After.' I'll treat you the way you need to be treated. I'll love you for who you are. I'll value you, I'll love you. I'll be everything you ever need."

They're obviously so much better off with you than with the person who takes them for granted. But when will they realize that? Will it be too late? You won't let it be too late. But you can't wait forever. Or can you? Because you deserve your 'Happy Ever After.' Or do you? And does it even exist?

Your possibilities of winning this war, are null. But you can't back down now, you've given in everything.
Your mind? Well, it's telling you to shut up and move on. To step into the real world.
But what about that fist-sized heart that always wins? It's telling you to still hope. To stay in the world of fairy-tales because 'Happy Ever Afters' do exist.The heart always wins. It keeps you hoping. And makes you stay in the world of fairy-tales a little longer (and longer), just to see what happens next. So you wait (and wait), with a broken spirit, a broken heart. That hopes that someone comes its way, and takes all the pain away.

---x---

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing

With a broken heart that's still beating

In the pain, there is healing

In your name I find meaning

So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on

I'm barely holdin' on to you

Broken, Lifehouse.

When Things Get Better Than Normal. :')

The beautiful sights make me smile, the beautiful things in life make me happy. Those stupid jokes make me laugh and those stupid memories, they make me cry (because I laugh that much, of course.).

Well, a few days back, my life got back to normal, things fell into place. There were a few twists and turns and now, I've been taken to a world that is beyond amazing. Things here, are better than normal. What goes around, comes around. After every storm, comes a rainbow. Who ever knew that all these sayings are true? Who ever knew that true happiness actually did exist, even though temporary. But it is the sad things that make us realize the value of the small but priceless happy times, isn't it?

Well, here's to the significance of ups and downs in life :) 

Again.

Hands over my head thinking, 'What else could go wrong?'

Would've stayed in bed, how can a day be so long?

Never believed that things happen for a reason

But how this turned out, removed all my doubts,

So

 That for you I'll do it all over again,

Do it all over again

All I went through, led me to you,

So I'd do it all over again, for you.

I missed the first train, stood out in the rain, all day

(Little did I know) When I caught the next train,
There you were to sweep me away,

Guess that's what I've waited for.

Never believed that things happened for a reason

But how this turned out, removed all my doubts, 

So

 That for you I'll do it all over again,

Do it all over again

All I went through, led me to you,

So I'd do it all over again.

Oh, who ever thought a day gone so wrong,
Would turn out so lovely?

I'm so glad I found you

Even though the day went so wrong,
I wouldn't change a thing,

I'd do it all over again

Do it all over again

All I went through, led me to you

So I'd do it all over again

I'd do it all over again 

Do it all over again 

All I went through, led me to you 

So I'd do it all over again.

Who ever thought a day gone so wrong, could turn out so lovely?

Who ever thought a day gone so wrong, could turn out so lovely?

-Natasha Bedingfield

So much for my Happy Ending!

Yes, Happy Dance! :D

So well, do you know that amazing feeling? When a new year brings along happiness, good luck, a million other good things and most important, a lost friend, who you thought would never return?

Yes, I'm happy. I'm very happy. Not only because I got my best friend back, but because we've forgotten all our differences and started over new. Not only because I actually realised how much she cares about me, but also because I'm happy that she's happy now.


I love you.
I won't ever leave you again. EVER.

Schadenfreude.

Respect yourself enough to walk away from anyone or anything that no longer grows you, serves you or makes you happy.

If they misunderstand everything you do and say, let them go. If they treat you indifferently, let them go. There's like seven billion people in this world and you don't need them if they make you feel miserable and schadenfreude out of your sufferings. It's okay if you're alone for a while. It doesn't mean your lonely and it surely doesn't mean that you can't start over again.

It is said that  living everyday of your life is like writing every action of yours on a paper with ink. You can't erase things once written, but it doesn't mean you should regret about what's you've already written. If they forget the one million good things you've done for them because of just one mistake, they aren't worth the pain you're going through. So start writing the story of your life once again, on a new page, start a new chapter. Stand up again, start again. Even if it means from the very beginning. Show them that you aren't suffering, give them the pain they gave you by showing them that you're stronger.

Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.
– Steve Jobs

Time Machine.

Yes, that was just what she needed. And as it stood right before her, she couldn't believe her eyes. It was a time machine. She slowly walked towards it and as she did, she thought of all that she was going through. Her life was shattered. She had lost everything and everyone she had. The only  ray of hope she had been holding on to slowly faded somewhere in the darkness and left her all alone. She saw all her loved ones screaming at her for something she'd never done. She watched as all of them walked away one by one and soon, she broke down.

'The time machine was the only solution now', she thought to herself. But did she want to go back in time and undo what she'd done or would she rather make sure she never made mistakes? As she finally bid today goodbye, she went to the future, thinking she'd learn to stand up again and start afresh, tomorrow. 

I Believe in Pixies♡

Love is when a puppy licks your face- even after you've left her alone all day :).

Pixie is probably the best that I can ever ever have. She's a puppy, a friend, a sister, a daughter, a care-taker, a teddy bear and so much more all wrapped into one tiny little 'SHE-IS-SO-CUTE-I-WANT-TO-EAT-HER-UP' package.

This maybe my shortest blog post ever, but I don't think I need to say much.
I Believe in Pixies. Do you? (: 

Unexpected.

Life is uncertain. Your yesterday may have been horrendous, but you never what today has in store for you. Today would've been the best day of your life, but you never know what happens tomorrow. Time decides how everything around you is going to be- The problems you're going to face, the warmth that you will receive from others, the people you're going to meet, what you're going to be doing and that in turn affects what actually happens in your life.
Time gives you what's best for you. She gives you rain so you know the value of sunshine. She gives you sunshine right after rain and shows you the rainbow. People come, people go. But some people stay. They may not be beside you for life, but they'll always be on your mind. Some may change you, some may help you discover yourself.

My yesterday was shattered. I was lost and out of place. But yesterday, he came into my life and gave me new direction. It's been just a while since I know him now and whatever others think or say, we're probably meant to be this way- to fool around like studs. And that's what we do. We trust each other, we meet, we talk sh*t, we talk about people. We laugh, we cry, we share stuff. We write, we relate. We're stupid, we're crazy. We keep repeating stuff again and again. We do shit, we have similar crazy ideas. We live life to the fullest. We're similar. 
And that's what I needed all this time, I needed someone like me. Someone I could pour out my heart out to, someone who'd laugh at the things I do and not call me weird. Someone to accept the fact that we are a little weird and life's a little weird and so it's okay to be weird. Someone to be with me when I try new things for the first time and give me company while I do. All those times I tried new things for the first time would have never ever been fun without him. So many memories, so much advice and those endless conversations. Things would have been so incomplete without him. Studs forever B).

The Best I've Ever Had

Ever had that one friend who you met unexpectedly? Yet they've become so close to you. Someone who's been there for you through thick and thin. Someone whom you trust with your eyes wide shut. Someone you can always depend on. Someone who's always got your back. Someone who's shoulder is always there for you to cry on. Someone whom you can call YOUR best friend.

It's been almost about sometime that I've known her but yet she's been with me through my most craziest memories. She's seen me through my best and worst, she's been with me through so many 'First time I ever did's. She's helped me out with numerous 'ups and downs' situations and laughed at the stupidest things. We've done so many crazy things ourselves in fact. We've seen so many days of fun as well as sorrow. Looking back, I cannot imagine my life without this girl now. It's been almost a year and she's a big part of my life.

Thank you so much, love. Life would've been so hard without you. I love you so much, you have new idea:*

Broken.

Do you know what it's like to see someone you know become someone you used to know? Have you ever spent endless nights thinking about why you can never get them back? Do you think about them during everything you do during the day, every single second of your day is devoted to their thoughts? Thinking how things got so bad and wished you could just undo everything? Do you ever wish upon a shooting star that things get back to how they used to be?

You try to be strong everyday. It isn't easy seeing them with new people and thinking of the time when you used to be the only person who they devoted all their attention to. You'll knew each other so well, in fact, both of you were so similar. Doesn't it hurt to see them just go away? You miss them but you know you can't get them back. The only songs in your playlist are a few sad songs and all the rest, songs that remind you of your memories with them. You re-read your text messages and smile sometimes, and sometimes you cry, because you wonder why you just can't do anything about it.

But be strong. Be independent. People come, people go. You're the only one you ever need. Don't regret it's over, be happy it just happened. Learn from your mistakes, enjoy what you do and what you have to live with. Love yourself, love others. Believe in everything you want to believe in. Do what you want to do. If you're broken, pick up the pieces and start again. If you're broken, laugh your problems off. If you're broken, know that better days will come. If you're broken, remember that you're perfectly amazing just how you are, so you have no reason to be upset.